Today is grandma’s birthday. I will be heading down to Malacca for a 1 day trip with Kev. Will be dropping down town for a walk and maybe to do some photography as well. Well, I mean Kev.
Will be back by midnight tonight, I hope. I still have some entries to post. Haven’t gotten the time to do so since I have some pile of work to do. Sort of.
Every morning, I would step onto the weighing scale to take my weight.
This scale is never accurate. I’ve been wanting to get a digital scale but am not willing to invest in one. The good ones were worth over a hundred and I would rather spend that amount on shoes instead.
Anyway, yesterday I weigh about 37.5kg. My lowest weight was 36kg. Not sure whether can I go any lower.
And the highest I’ve gone was 44kg. That was after coming back from Italy.
For a someone who stand at 148cm, my ideal weight supposed to be 40kg. But I’m not sure whether I want to get there.
I will need to work out more often whenever I have the chance to. But time is always the problem. Sigh.
It’s Christmas eve and I have finally settled down a little after my trip to Singapore over the weekend. I really enjoyed the Singapore trip. It was my official Singapore trip, I would say. Because those other time when I was there, I was either too young to remember anything or I haven’t been there long enough to actually explore the place. In fact, I do somewhat like staying in Singapore. The place is clean and the things are really cheap there, provided you’re working there, that is.
Anyway, since I have some time to spare. Shall post up some random pics that I’ve took over the past few weeks.
I don’t remember what Kev was doing but this pic turned out kind of cute.
This morning, I woke up having an awful cram in my stomach. And I really hate it. This syndrome always happen at that particular time of the month, 12 times a year! Dammit!
Why oh why being a woman is so painful…
I’m gonna take one painkiller and crawl back to bed for awhile. Still need to visit the dentist, go to the bank and collect an overdue cheque from my client later.
Pain, pain, please go away,
And please don’t ever come again another day (LOL!),
Cause little Celine wanna play.
For the last 2 days while I was at class. The song Numb by Linkin Park have been played over and over again on a boy’s Walkman phone. I like how the song sounded. But not the lyric. I thought it was rather negative. But then again, I somehow felt that I could really relate to the song.
Its about the burden of having to live up to someone else’s expectations, but you know you can never and will never be what they wanted you to be. Because you’re you. You was once so much in pain but now you couldn’t feel a thing. Not even a bit. You were once so emotionally abused. Right now, you’ve become so numb. You know that you’ve tried so hard and yet people think that you’re not trying. Everything that you’ve done, no matter how good it is, your points will never be increased. But when you made the slightest mistake, you marks are reduced tremendously. Every step that you take is another big mistake. You are always put to blame.
Numb - Linkin Park
I’m tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface I don’t know what you’re expecting of me put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow] every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
I’ve
become so numb
I can’t feel you there I’ve become so tired so much more aware
I’m becoming this all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.
Can’t you see that you’re smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control cause everything that you thought I would be is falling apart right in front of you.
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow],
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow,just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take.
I’ve
become so numb
I can’t feel you there
I’ve become so tired
so much more aware
I’m becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you.
I’ve
become so numb
I can’t feel you there
I’ve become so tired
so much more aware
I’m becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
[tired of being what you want me to be]
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
[tired of being what you want me to be
Both Pinky and the Brain have finally moved to Cheras. Haha… Why? Because Kev’s mum doesn’t like pets in the house. Iggy is still alright since it is left outside the house. LOL! That stingy big green monster! Haha…
Both of the rats are now in their adult size. They are really big. Like those black rats you see on the street. But these 2 are harmless. They don’t bite.
The first thing my brothers and mum been telling me when they first moved in, “Eh, the rat came out already”. I replied, “Ya, I know. It’s normal. I opened the cage so that they would move around“. The cage is a little too small for them anyway.
